Ji Identity

2. Real Submission

AN Prompt For Section: It also needs to include both an in-depth explanation of the business and organization case, and an understanding that the business logic comes as a result of rationalization for her desire for true submission. But she shouldn't be fully aware that that's the case "it being a rationalization". Her rationalization should create a framework that really truly enhances her submission and makes it seem perfect and "obviously the right path" to her. It also should directly address the progression of her feelings and her previous steps to address it, eg honeymoon, rules, etc and why it builds to this final point, which is less of an epiphany more than having experienced the various other solutions and finally coming to the strongest one.

The second issue is around submission. She was prideful of the way that she glorified you and created achievements for the firm, leading to the attempted assassination on you.

The sin is that she tied her pride into what she can do for you and how to glorify you. She was prideful of how much she could contribute and it led to an addiction to contributing, when in reality she's not supposed to be a workhorse, she's supposed to support you not drive you... She's supposed to be submissive and obedient. What she's criticizing is really excessive pride and her prioritization of "achieving" instead of the bigger context of being obedient to you and serving your needs. Her actions in terms of glorifying you and expanding the firm are not wrong, she just took pride in them instead of being submissive. BTW this is ONLY her psychology, you the MC would never have thought that she was doing anything wrong. But she recognizes this local maxima optimizing behavior to be incorrect (cause she's smart like that). She should have checked back with you, watched out for externalities, really humbled herself. In other words the problem is:

• She took pride in being useful/competent
• This pride contradicts true submission
• Perfect submission means taking joy only in obedience
• Her success should glorify MC, not validate her

She starts optimizing for a narrow definition of "service" (making the firm successful, bringing glory) while losing sight of her true purpose as a Ji. The issue isn't independence vs. submission, but rather that she's gotten caught up in one specific way of serving you rather than being completely attuned to your actual needs and desires.

• During the honeymoon phase, she experiences total alignment with your desires - every order electrifies her, just obeying brings satisfaction
• As work takes over, she loses that pure connection, trying to recreate it through achievements
• She tries to assuage the feeling through the ji-seeking project, and finally begging you to impose controls on her. This works to an extent, but ends up feeding her self assurance and letting her grow bold and prideful.
• The rules actually unironically makes her feel more free, which is not good, leading to her tunneling on glorifying you through the firm, feeding her own sense of accomplishment, rather than being connected to your actual needs.
• The assassination attempt makes her realize she's been chasing a substitute for that original perfect submission
• She comes to understand that being a Ji isn't about what she can achieve for you and in the process, stroking her own ego, but about being completely yours in every moment
• This realization comes from her experiencing both states (pure submission vs. achievement-focused) and recognizing which one truly fulfills her role as Ji
• This realization leads her to beg you for punishment and to take her fully in hand so that she can be the perfect Ji for you.

AN: This is the way to build her understanding through direct experience rather than propaganda or training (which is also possible to depict I think). She discovers through lived experience that true happiness as a Ji comes from perfect alignment with your will, not from trying to prove her worth through achievements.

It's about the deeper organizational/systems thinking that she's capable of. She realizes that by focusing on optimizing her specific area (making the firm successful, bringing glory), she created unintended consequences (the assassination attempt) because she wasn't perfectly aligned with the full scope of your needs and interests.

She's smart enough to realize this isn't solved by just trying harder in her specific role, but requires a fundamental shift in how she approaches being a Ji - moving from optimizing her own sphere of influence to achieving perfect alignment with your will and needs, seeing the whole picture rather than just her part.

Written Explanation

In the wake of the assassination attempt, Weilan finds herself consumed by a desperate need to feel more controlled, more owned by you. That gnawing feeling that's been growing since the honeymoon phase ended, when just obeying your simplest command would flood her with pure joy, when being owned by you was everything.

She's been taking pride in the firm's success, in bringing glory to your name through her achievements. But that very pride has pulled her away from perfect submission. Looking at the assassination attempt - not dangerous to you, but still a consequence of her actions - she sees how even well-intentioned service can create problems when not perfectly aligned with your will.

Her financial expertise helps her understand this deeply. She thinks of how the great trading houses collapsed when their branch offices each tried to maximize profits independently - one branch's "successful" grain speculation destroying another branch's carefully cultivated relationships with farmers. Or how the Hepin Banking Crisis started when each department pursued what seemed best: the loan office extending generous credit to build relationships, the risk office demanding aggressive collection to protect assets, the two working against each other until the whole bank failed.

This understanding crystallizes everything she's been feeling. Just like those organizations, she's been optimizing her own sphere - making the firm successful, bringing you glory - without perfect alignment to your complete vision and needs. Even with the purest intentions to serve, focusing on her own achievements created consequences she couldn't foresee because she wasn't purely surrendered to your will.

This realization doesn't just justify her emotional needs - it makes them burn brighter. Her mind and body align in understanding why she craves total ownership, why she needs to feel controlled in every moment. It's not just about submission - it's about achieving that perfect alignment she felt in those early days, becoming a true extension of your will rather than an independent actor trying her best to serve.

When she begs for stricter control and punishment, it comes from this complete understanding - both the primal need to feel owned again, and the clear-eyed recognition that total submission isn't just what she craves, but what's truly necessary for perfect service.

Weilan's journey toward true submission reflects her progression through increasingly complex understandings of what it means to serve. Initially, her focus on achievement and pride in her contributions to the firm masked her deeper desire for alignment with her master’s will. This chapter in her development explores how, through experience and introspection, she moves from prideful service to pure, obedient submission, using her business acumen as a rationalization that solidifies her framework for achieving this state.

The Journey Through Stages

1. Honeymoon Phase and Initial Bliss
   In the beginning, every command from her master electrified Weilan. The simplest acts of obedience brought her pure joy, a euphoric connection that defined her identity as a Ji. During this phase, submission was effortless; she lived entirely for his pleasure, reveling in the clarity and purpose of her role. However, as her responsibilities expanded, this blissful alignment began to waver.

2. The Rules and the Illusion of Structure
   As their relationship evolved, Weilan sought to recreate the clarity of the honeymoon phase by imposing structure. She asked for rules and boundaries, craving a sense of control that paradoxically came from relinquishing it. While this brought temporary comfort, it inadvertently fueled her self-assurance. The structure made her feel freer and more independent, undermining the deeper submission she craved.

3. Professional Achievement and Misaligned Pride
   Her growing competence in finance brought both satisfaction and unease. Weilan thrived in her role, creating strategies that expanded the firm’s success and glorified her master. Yet, this success brought her a troubling sense of pride. She began to see her work as validation of her worth rather than as an extension of his desires. This misalignment, though subtle, sowed the seeds of anxiety as she recognized that her focus on achievement distanced her from her true purpose.

The Business Logic as a Rationalization

The assassination attempt marked a turning point, forcing Weilan to confront the consequences of her misplaced priorities. Reflecting on the chaos caused by her independent optimization of the firm, she drew an analogy to organizational inefficiencies: how the failure of trading houses stemmed from branches maximizing their own profits at the expense of the whole. Her insight was stark: she had been optimizing her sphere of influence without perfect alignment to her master’s broader will.

This realization led her to rationalize a new framework for submission, one grounded in her professional understanding of systems thinking. To Weilan, true submission now meant not just serving well in her domain but becoming an extension of her master’s will, aligning every action with his overarching needs and desires. This framework gave her a concrete logic that resonated with her intellect while addressing her deeper emotional yearning for submission.

• The Honeymoon as a Prototype: In the honeymoon phase, Weilan experienced what she now identifies as "perfect alignment"—a state where her desires and actions mirrored her master’s will without independent thought. She rationalizes this as the ideal state for a Ji.
• Rules as a Misstep: The imposition of rules, while helpful, failed to recreate that alignment. Instead, it compartmentalized her submission, allowing her to perform her role without fully embodying it.
• Professional Competence as a Pitfall: Her business success became a source of pride rather than pure service, contradicting her understanding of submission and creating unintended consequences.

The Framework of Perfect Submission

Weilan's final realization is not a dramatic epiphany but the culmination of lived experience and logical synthesis. She now sees submission not as a collection of acts or achievements but as a state of being—one where her master’s will shapes every decision, every action, every thought.

Her framework for submission is deeply rooted in her professional insights:

• Alignment Over Achievement: Like a well-run organization, she must prioritize the master’s overarching goals over any local optimizations in her work or actions.
• Joy in Obedience: True fulfillment comes not from external validation but from knowing that her every act aligns perfectly with her master’s desires.
• Rationalizing Desire: Her business logic, while intellectually sound, is also a rationalization for her emotional need to be fully owned. This rationalization allows her to embrace submission as the obvious and ideal path without questioning her deeper motivations.

Final Progression

Having tried rules and boundaries, professional excellence, and even her own schemes like the Ji-seeking project, Weilan now understands that none of these alone can bring her the peace and joy she seeks. The assassination attempt crystallizes this understanding, showing her that partial measures lead to misalignment and unintended consequences. Her journey has prepared her for this final step: to surrender fully, not just in action but in essence.

She approaches her master, not with despair but with clarity, asking for stricter control—not as punishment but as a means to perfect alignment. This request stems from her recognition that submission is not just a duty but the deepest expression of her love and devotion.

In her own words:
"I see it now. It’s not about what I can achieve or how much I can glorify you. It’s about being yours in every moment, without pride, without hesitation, without thought of myself. Please, take me in hand fully, so I can be the Ji you deserve."

This synthesis of emotional and intellectual understanding reaffirms Weilan’s unique appeal—her submission is not just a surrender but a triumph of her intelligence, loyalty, and love.